If Only

So, being a bit nostalgic and was thinking back about the people who have walked in and out of my life, and those who have stayed with me till now. It's funny how much life has changed me, I've learnt to be more relaxed (I guess I did) and to not ponder too much on others' opinion. After all, we can't please everyone we meet.

Well, thinking back and recalling, I can't help but to think of you, my friend. And whether you will come across this post of mine someday I shall leave that in the hands of God. I've known you since we were 7 (If I'm not mistaken) but we weren't very close then, just mere acquaintances who happened to be in the same classroom. Then when we were 9 we got to know each other better. Never shall I forget all those silly things that we have gone through, making up origami and not to forget the famous rubber dust back then. The worst thing was getting caught and having to throw our "treasures"  away. Remember how much it broke our hearts girl?

Things got even better as we grew up, we were the best of pals and even though at times we may become distant from each other, I knew I could always rely on you whenever I needed a friend and that you'll always have my back. Then came secondary and we got even closer, meeting new friends along the way and forming a group of our own. Not long after we were all a happy family, we relied on each other and had fun times and bad times together. Although we may have conflicts among ourselves, but family was family and we stuck with each other through thick and thin. Those girls' nights shall always be part of the sweet memories in my life.

Ah how I miss those days. Perhaps it was tragic, perhaps it was not, but the time came and the tide changed, soon enough you were becoming more and more of a stranger to me, or perhaps to our family as well. It's a choice you made and I would not hate you for that for it is your life. As time goes by, it saddens me that we have became strangers.

The day then came when you chose to leave us and that was the end. Now, thinking back, I wished things could be different. Yes, I admit it. As much as we have hurt each other, I've missed you. I miss the times when we would gossip about crushes. I missed those times when we would just sit down and giggle over girl talk sessions. I miss those times when we did our revision together but ended up chatting instead. I missed those times when we shared our darkest and most embarrassing secrets. But most of all, I miss having you as my friend girl.

So, if only things could have been different.