Fate sometimes thinks it's funny to say no to our desires. But sometimes, or most of the time, it's just ourselves. It's just whether or not we're brave or courageous enough to take the risk, to take that step forward. Sometimes, in the darkest hour and times, it feels like we're not meant to be. And that you truly deserves someone far much stronger and braver than I am. Times like that, I truly wished that you were with someone else.

Nonetheless, I love you.

As always, apologies for abandoning my blog for such a long time. Well, anyways, school has finally ended. Yes indeed, it has officially ended. With the official leave of the Form Fives on Thanksgiving day, to this day, which is also the day of retirement for a teacher who has committed herself for this school which has a history behind it for 31 years.

I can't say 2010 is a year full of shit, indeed I can't say that it has been wonderful either. Because as life allows it, it is always wonderful and sometimes shitty. From being a blur Form 1 student till being part of a big family, this year truly has been amazing, with the best seniors I ever had. I really am going to miss each and everyone of you.

Well, last of all. Happy holidays to all of you and good luck to the seniors!

Scene : A family watching the television, show's/new's about:
1) A teenage girl who can't control her crazy hormones and got pregnant for doing it with her boyfriend.
2) A girl got raped because she trusted her boyfriend.
3) A young couple about to do it and the boy promised the girl that she's the one he truly
love and will never leave her no matter what but ends up dumping her because she got pregnant.
And the list goes on and on.

Parents : See honey, that's what you get for dating at an early age. Teenagers are just lack of moral values and self dignity nowadays that they are willing to give their body at such a young age.
Kid : But mum/dad, not all teenagers are like that.
Parents : Teenagers are teenagers, that is why you are not allowed to have a boyfriend at such a
young age. It's all for your own good honey. Education is important, remember that.
Kid : *silent*

Now, question, has something like this ever happen to you?

Well, it has to me. I've heard it so often that I can tell what are my parents thinking before they even open their mouths to start this particular topic.

My opinion?

Yes, as true as it is, it is a fact that teenagers nowadays mostly only care about their lust desires. Thus, forgetting their self dignity or self respect towards themselves.

But, see everything has a BUT.

What happens to those young couples who truly love each other? I'm not saying it's a bad thing that parents are protective of their child's happiness and safety, but, really, they believe what the media shows them. They keep it in their brains that that's what's gonna happen when their innocent child is dating at a young age.

Is it fair for them to think that way? Shouldn't they just give their children a chance to prove themselves worthy?

It's amazing how things can turn from heaven to hell within 24 hours. And that, is exactly what happened to me.

Yesterday was one of the happiest day of my life, a chance that appears out of the blue. I got to spent the day with my friends who made yesterday a memorable one. On the other hand, after almost 4 months of not being able to be together without offending people, we finally had the chance to hang out. Although it's only 2 hours, I felt like nothing matters anymore. When you pulled me into your embrace, I felt safe for once.

But today, all of that seem so far away. It seemed like all of that never happened. Frankly speaking, I was not mad, at all. I was hurt and disappointed...

Freedom =)

Apologies for the delays of the posting.

Finally, finally, FINALLY, the war is officially OVER! All hell break lose as the clock ticks 4 and everybody was eager to get off they're seat, as though there were pins on their chairs. Then when the invigilator announced that we were free to go, everyone shouted, out of joy of gaining our freedom back.

Therefore to all fellow Form Threes, the war is over. Although we have a long way to go, results coming somewhere in December, don't even waste your time worrying about it all. Let your hair down, and party like you never party before!

Adios.

Came back, feeling relieved and glad that the government was kind enough to give us a break that lasts 72 hours before returning to the battlefield.

Came home, had a long bath, cleared the table that was occupied with a mountain of books. Took out my net book, switch on the power and the screen came back to life after almost a week of abandoning it.

Feeling happy that I had a break and could finally let my hair down a little, something broke again. Like a vase falling down from the table, shattering into tiny little pieces and the flowers inside it lay lifeless and helpless on the floor, covered by tiny pieces of broken glass.

That's a metaphor about how my life has been lately. Every single moment something wonderful happens, it disappears, just as fast as how it appeared out of sheer luck. What has been going on? Is it the stress? Is it the paranoia? I don't really know either.

Good luck people!

Feeling anxious, yet scared, I can't say I'm not eager to finish PMR. To be honest, I am not fully prepared. That's the truth I'm telling you readers who are also taking the examination next Tuesday. No, in case you think I'm lying and trying to be the kind that says I didn't study but did, no, I'm not that kind of person. So, as much as I want it to end, I'm still hoping it doesn't come. So to all of you readers who are the same age as me and taking PMR, good luck and all the best. Pray hard, try all your best because this is what you have prepared yourselves for. All those late night studying, not going out because you need to study, the restraining of not going to Facebook, etc, all of those are gonna be paid off. So, give it your best shot and don't stress yourselves.