Life has taken yet another weird course. This time, a much more tougher one. Why you may ask? It's because it made me wonder again and again and made me think of all the what ifs that I could came up with. What if people except that you actually love someone? Wouldn't that be easier to be joyful together and exploring each other's pros and cons? Instead of judging the book by its cover, judging someone by mere comments from others, isn't it much easier to just get to know that person yourself? I think I'm blabbing in this post, the reason is because I have no idea how on earth am I going to start this post.

As happy as I may be, there are ups and downs in life which I cannot deny. I often ponder on the thought of having a family, or building one, one that is peaceful, that don't shout to each other every day, one that talks politely. Sadly, I can't see that happening. Maybe I could build one someday, who knows.

I often too, ponder on the thought of spending my life with Mr. Right, the kind of guy that is perfect from every single aspects. But sadly, that's not possible, although, I believe I have found my true love, as rare as it may seem, I like to think that I have found mine. Because when we're together, nothing else matters anymore. Of course, being in a relationship is not all lovey dovey all the time. We fight, we cry and we make up. That's what we do. Most importantly, we love each other with all our hearts. And that to me, is what matters the most.

If I may quote The Notebook,
" The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected. Maybe they always have been and will be. Maybe we've lived a thousand lives before this one and in each of them we've found each other. And maybe each time, we're forced apart for the same reasons. That means that this good-bye is both a good-bye for the past ten thousand years and a prelude to what will come. When I look at you, I see your beauty and grace and know they have grown stronger with every life you have lived. And I know I have spent every life before this one searching for you. Not someone like you, but you, for your soul and mine must always come together. And then, for a reason neither of us understands, we've been forced to say good-bye. I would love to tell you that everything will work out for us, and I promise to do all I can to make sure it does. But if we never meet again and this is truly good-bye, I know we will see each other again in another life. We will find each other again, and we will not only love each other in that time, but for all the times we've had before."

Love. This 4 letters make people do all sorts of things, may it be foolish or not. I feel a burning sensation inside every time we argue on the only day we could see each other. I don't deny I'm wrong. As much as I want to avoid it, I can't. I'm sorry that I hurt you and I'm sorry for everything that I've said and done. Maybe we aren't meant for each other, I don't know. But whatever it is, whatever happens, I know I'll never forget you. Because you honey, will be the first person who made me have butterflies in my tummy and the first to make me want to open up and not shutting out the world. I love you.