Finally...

Finally people,FINALLY!I have done fancy drill, sketch and the logo!All that is left now is camp decorations, dancing and colouring the banner.Wish me luck this Saturday.I'm so glad I finally finished so many things!Feels like a heavy burden has been lifted off my shoulder.Well,I hope I won't look weird dancing!

Already the 4th day I heard of the death of the King of Pop.I never thought he would leave us so soon,yet I remember the first day when I heard that he left us,I didn't feel anything but shocked,because I never thought it would be so sudden and soon as he was going to have a concert and all the tickets was sold out.But,after watching his concert on Saturday night,I began to feel sad and kept asking myself why in the world must he go so fast?Till this moment the fact that he has left us still haunts me and his songs kept playing automatically in my mind.

Yay!Finally get to eat durian my favourite!Yahoo

Thanks.Thank you for making me happy every time I fall.Thank you for giving me faith when I was down and didn't know what to do.Without you,I wouldn't have climbed up again every time I fall.I will try to make things better for everyone.I don't want to be weak and I know you don't wanna see me like that too,devastated and being sorry for myself instead of taking actions.I know every time you see me cry,you're hurt too.So,I won't let that happen again.Not anymore,I don't want to see people getting hurt just because of me,it's not worth it.
I don't know what I can do to change this but,no matter what I do,I won't hurt you again.All along,I didn't know this would happen to me.It feels like dream,a sweet dream that I wished I would not have to wake up forever.And I want to make this dream into a reality and forever remains a reality.I want that dream to come true.Nothing else matters anymore..

Why?Why?Why must I turn into a damn freaking emo every time I can't solve a problem or every time something unlucky happens to me,or every time something I want just don't happen?Why must I feel so bad?You wanna know why?I'll tell you why?I'm sick and tired of being a doll that potrays only good things.But,that's what I wanna be,isn't it?Truth is yes,I want to be the best.If not the best,then at least the average but not the worst.Can I ever do what I want?Can I ever show them the monster in disguise within me?Is this me?A good girl?Or a devil?I don't know..

Just finish cross-country.Got 26th place,well,at least I got something!My heel is hurting like hell cause of last night's training then today run some more.So,now I can't even walk properly cause it hurts so much.

Feeling so useless,can't even do anything and always letting you down.I'm really really sorry I'm always letting you down all the time,and I know this is very disappointing to you.Apart from apologizing,I don't know what else I can do to make you happy.It's always you who is always making me happy and I feel so useless cause I can't even do anything with you.I'm really really sorry.

To The King of Pop

Michael jackson,a truly talented artist and dancer,have left us on Thrusday and although I'm no longer a fan of his,this news that reached me today had truly surprised me.His dance moves is a very extraordinary thing that he has and the world has lost another talented person.Although he is not liked by many people,but he truly has a great talent in the music industry.
To The Kinf of Pop,may you rest in peace.

Halfway doing preparations for this year's Girl Guides camp and I'm half-dead already.The banner I'll be drawing a pharaoh-like picture with our group's name which I don't yet.Tomorrow our group will be staying back till 4p.m.(there goes my free time to sleep)to discuss bout the banner etc.I swear if I'm the one getting punished because of them acting silly and making us lose,I'm gonna kill them.Well,that's all and I'm going back to doing the preparations.
P.S. Too bad,I won't be going to any guitar classes anymore.So,I'm sorry to those who I said I'll play a song for you guys on your birthdays.Sorry.

Doom people!Doom!Why?!Of all the people,why me?Why must I be the leader?!I'm just a Form 2 who didn't even attend camp last year and this year I'm leader?!This year's theme:The Legend of Arabian.Alladin?Ali Baba?Sinbad?Pyramids?Pharoahs?I don't know!

Camp is coming!!

4th June,the day of doom,well,for me at least!I'm group leader which means there's work I have to do!There's banners,logos and name tags to be done!In two weeks!how the hell am I going to finish that!And I don't even know how to spell the theme out!Help!SOS!I'm going to die!

Bored bored and I'm bored..What now?I haven't finish my homework and I so don't have any mood to do it.
Life..What does it really mean to you?Well for me,these few weeks have been the most memorable and most precious one.I not only found true friends but also a guardian angel.And although I have to take a lot of risks,these risks are worth taking.Like 'someone' once said,we sometimes loves to takes risks like jumping off a plane without a parachute...Call it impulsive if you want to but to me,these risks are worth it..Because if I had not taken the risk,I wouldn't have what I have now..A guardian angel..

Attention people..Finally,finally I'm going to learn guitar!It's RM80 per month per person and a guitar costs Rm300...The bad news is,I'm not sure if dad and mum can afford it.Hopefully they can.I really want to play the guitar!There's so many songs I want to play!

Happy Fathers' Day dad!!Thank you for all the things you have done for me

Third post of the day..Well who cares?

My Love Will Get You Home

If you wander off too far
My love will get you home
If you follow the wrong star
My love will get you home

If you ever find yourself
Lost and all alone
Get back on your feet and think of me
My love will get you home boy
My love will get you home

If the bright lights blind your eyes
My love will get you home
If your troubles break your stride
My love will get you home

If you ever find yourself
Lost and all alone
Get back on your feet and think of me
My love will get you home boy
My love will get you home

If you ever feel ashamed
My love will get you home
When there's only you to blame
My love will get you home

If you ever find yourself
Lost and all alone
Get back on your feet and think of me
My love will get you home boy
My love will get home

If you ever find yourself
Lost and all alone
Get back on your feet and think of me
My love will get you home boy
My love will get you home boy
My love will get you home...

The song above is My Love Will Get You Home by Christine Glass...A really nice song to me.This song below is Ice Cream by Ciara Newell..Both sre from the TVB movie Heart of Greed and Moonlight Resonance.

Ice Cream

Talk to me
You speak with me
Don't sink before you rise baby
Don't fade away

You hesitate
You seem to wait
For all the time we had
Feels like a world away

Who's to say, we'll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we're the same
And I know that we'll never change
Look I bought your favourite ice cream
I don't wanna see it melt away

If you walk out now
I don't know if we're gonna be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

The memories
The things we did
I locked inside my heart
Where I know I won't forget

And now, who's to say, we'll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we're the same
And I know that we'll never change
look I bought your favorite ice ream
I don't want to see it melts away

If you walk out now
I don't know if we could be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

I want you to stay here with me

Well,that's it then...I just felt like posting these two songs..

Emo..emo..emo...emo...What do I do now?I'm obviously turning into an emo again,and I just hope he won't see this post because I really don't want him to see me like this.And for those who are readin this,the 'he' I'm talking about now is not,I repeat,NOT my boyfriend ok?His just a friend of mine whom I treat as a big brother so don't you people have silly thoughts about me.
Ok,so I'm turning into an emo and I'm trying really really hard to not think about what I'm thinking right now,and I'm trying to just think about other stuff that'll make me happy,but,why is it just so hard?
Why?Why must this happen to me?Why do I have to be such a little freak that turns into an emo and starts crying like a baby little girl when I'm in trouble?Why can't I be those girls out there whose so brave and can actually hold their head up high and not afraid of challenges that's ahead of them?Why?Why must I be who I am now?Why can't I be who I was last time?The type of person who'll face challenges with courage instead of shedding baby tears...
Why do I have to be such a hypocrate?Why do I have to pretend?Why can't I just be myself?See?I'm such a freak I even feel like crying now writing this post..Why can't I just think of positive ways to solve all my problems instead of turning into an emo and disappointing him and do something to fix it instead of crying,crying and crying?

A true friend is like an angel,sent down from heaven..

Today,I truly have found a true friend.All along,I did not realized that I had such a friend who cares so much for me,I did not know that all along,I had a status of a best friend in her heart.I'm truly sorry that I have made you feel alone or lost,and I promise you I will try my best to not make you feel alone or lost again..I even failed to realized that being friends with her would worried you,but don't worry, I won't hurt myself again because it's not worth it..Thank you,thank you for caring about me and for making me your best friend..

Wednesday,exactly a week after tournament,the day which i got knocked out and kicked at the jaw..The day of disappointment.But,I have learnt a lesson,it's to never never be afraid no matter who the opponent is..And to raise up my hands when I'm sparring especially when my opponent is taller than me..I learn that the hard way,and until today,I'm still regretting it when it crossed my mind..However,I'll try my very best to improve and never repeat my mistake again...So tonight,I'm going to hell and heaven....Bless me God..

First day of school in second semester..And I'm still in holiday mode..hehe...well,I still want holiday ma,so fast over already..haiz..and tonight is training,the only thing that cheers me up

Goodbye holidays

Haiz, everyday must have an end...So does every holiday...Today, 14th June 2009, Sunday is the last day of the first semester holidays that lasted two weeks. But, this two week holidays is my best holiday ever! So many nice things happened to me and my wishes has been fulfilled,and I thank God and fate for letting my wish come true..And after today,I'll study really hard and practice really hard to improve in studies and of course in training too..Hopefully by next year when I meet an opponent who is taller than me, I won't get knocked out anymore..Gambateh!And thanks you to the lovely people who made my holidays a memorable one!!!Love you guys!

Tournament

Yay!Tournament is done at last!
Day 1
Arrived at Queensbay Mall at 12.30pm,the first event of the day,sparring started.Aaron and Ah Tong lost..Too bad,but don't worry,you all tried your best..Then,children's demo at 3pm and adults' and children's self-defense demo at 5pm..So nervous doing self-defense with Ah Fook...Lucky didn't forget anything...Then,Poomsae and Breaking event..So scared..Jason said the first thing to do if you wanna win poomsae is power,so I did my patterns with power...After that,breaking event,Archangels and my another team which name is so complicated...Then,the kids' team so cute!And of course adults team:Fearless and Pentagon..The team from Chukwon,Perak was so cool,they were doing taerobiks and gymnastics combined with taekwondo..Too bad kor got injured on the knee so he didn't finish the breaking event.Don't worry kor,you tried your best!Thank you so much for coming Xin Yi!!Then it was end of Day 1 and I went to sleep so damn early because I was so damn tired...So nervous the next day!!!
Day 2
Arrived at Queensbay Mall(again)at 12pm...Sparring!So scared and I'm Round 51 Ring B..As if my luck is not 'good' enough,my category is combined with another category so I'm gonna fight with people who is heavier than me,not to mention taller than me!Well,at least I'm in semi-finals,so even if I lose,I'm still a bronze medalist.First up,Michaela..And she won!!Before that was kor's turn but he had to walk-over cause of his injury...Then,Ah Huat..Don't know what's wrong with the referee,he kicked so many times but still lose..Then Jin Shan...Yay!He won!Then,Johnson's turn..He won too...Then,finally..I saw who I'm gonna fight with and I froze..She was so tall and she's a black belt!!!!Then,Michaela's turn..She won silver.,lost in finals..Jin Shan and Johnson won gold!!!My turn...Bowed,shouted..Got kicked at the jaw and redraw....Then Jessie got gold!!!!Jan,thanks so much for coming to support!!
Prize giving time...Took pictures with everybody and although I didn't win in sparring..Well,I'll try harder next time and I realized I can't chew even bread!!Ouch!!
At last..GOOD JOB EVERYBODY!!!!

Tournament is like 2 days away!Oh my God!What the..??!!Ok,I need to calm down..But I'm still scared about demo,breaking and pattern and sparring..Wish me luck people!
Holidays are ok though..Hang out with Jan and I can't wait to see you and Xin Yi at Queens!!!Watched Hannah Montana the movie and Night At The Museum 2..Kinda nice..Goin to Gurney with Jessie tomorrow..First time hanging out with her..