Don't really know how or what to say now. If life's a test, then I'll accept it, if this is what I have to do in order to be stronger, so be it. Seems like it was just yesterday, the memories of all the fun and sweet stuff we'd done, yet, there's still those that we wished we do not have to go through again. After all, it's all those journeys that we've ventured together that have made us stronger.

Maybe I've changed, I don't know. Life's been like a hell hole lately, how the hell did we end up like this? How can a dream became a nightmarish hell? Loving someone was never something easy, it was never like hating someone, because it was the total opposite of it. Hating someone was so so much easier than the opposite. Because in order to love someone, you have to really have patience and ready for anything life throws at you, whether a suckish hell or whatever. Chances slipped through easily when we aren't alert, chances that will never come back. But someone once told me, something that have happened will somehow happen again.

God gave us the ability to love, is it a test or a gift? Or rather, is it both? If it's both, then it's a hell of a great task. People fail all the time, ending up in breakups and divorces. Unlike some, who loved each other till their very last breath, who would die for each other. Life was never easy since the day we were born, but it's always wonderful to know that we have an angel watching over us. Crying, was always either the best or worst medicine to cure or worsen the pain.

Well, whatever it is, I'm tired, I truly am. But then, that would mean I've given up on life eh? Well guess what, I'm not. I'm clinging on, and I don't care whatever hell it takes, you CLING on too, and someday somehow we'll get what we deserved all along....

Finally..

Been awhile since I've updated. Apologies for being so lazy nowadays.

So, been a bit late to post but finally reached my 15th birthday, thank you to all who remembered this special day and for your wonderful gifts. For all of you whom feelings I've hurt, I'm really sorry for what I did. To my friends and my beloved darling, thank you so so much for always believing in me, thank you so much for always being there for me.

Third day of exams today, with two days left, there's little I can do to make myself feel better for studying at the eleventh hour. Promise myself I'll strive and do my best to get what's mine. Also, never going to study at the eleventh hour ever again.

And, last but not least, 23rd of May, comes a significant and special day for us. Been almost a year since I've gathered up my strength to tell you how I feel. I'll always remember those special moments we had together. Although the path set for us is tough and rough, I believe we'll somehow be able to live through it. ^^

Beyonce - Save the Hero

I lay alone awake at night
Sorrow fills my eyes
But I’m not strong enough to cry
Despite of my disguise
I’m left with no shoulder
But everybody wants to lean on me.
I guess I’m their soldier.
Well, who’s gonna be mine

Who’s there to save the hero
When she’s left all alone
And she’s crying out for help.
Who’s there to save the hero
Who’s there to save the girl…
After she saves the world
After she saves the world.

I bottle all my hurt inside,
I guess I’m living a lie.
Inside my mind each day I die
What can bring me back to life?
A simple word, a gesture
Someone to say you’re beautiful
Come find this buried treasure
Rainbows lead to a pot of gold.

Who’s there to save the hero
When she’s left all alone
And she’s crying out for help
Who’s there to save the hero
Who’s there to save the girl
After she saves the world…
After she saves the world.

I’ve given too much of myself
And now it’s driving me crazy
(I’m crying out for help?
Sometimes I wish someone would
Just come here and save me…
Save me from myself

Who’s there to save the hero
When she’s left all alone
And she’s crying out for help
Who’s there to save the hero
Who’s there to save the girl
After she saves the world…
After she saves the world.


Adam Lambert - No Boundaries

Ohh
Seconds hours so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment lasts forever
When you feel you've lost your way
What if my chances were already gone
I started believing that I could be wrong
But you gave me one good reason
To fight and never walk away
So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

I fought to the limit you stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets
Don't know where the future's headed
Nothing's gonna bring me down
Jumped every bridge I've run every line
I risk being safe, I always knew why
I always knew why
So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule cause there's nothing between you and your dreams

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
No boundaries
Yeah, there are no boundaries

Prefects or Perfect?

Today was the vise versa of yesterday. Instead of getting another funny and active lecturer, we got a boring, sarcastic lecturer for English subject today. Common sense, as humans, as STUDENTS, we began to talk when we're boring to entertain ourselves. So we were talking among each other, mind you it was talking NOT shouting or anything, out of the blue, she approached us and said, "Prefects should not talk! I'm going to report the three of you!" and glared at us as if we just commited a crime so bad we should be sentenced to death. NOT.

Mind you, even thought we're P-R-E-F-E-C-T-S we're not P-E-R-F-E-C-T. So live with it, we're teenagers, we're still learning to cope with life. So we talked, big deal, if you were in our shoes, I'll bet you'll do the exact same thing.

Ever since I became a prefect, life's been a whole lot of hell. Everywhere or anything I do, here and there I hear "You as a prefect must not do this and must do this" or "You are a prefect and you are like this". What's wrong with me? I'm a teenager, fresh and new, here to learn new things and NOT get scolded at.

What's your problem with me eh? You want a fight? I'll give you a fight if you want one. Just because I'm a prefect, I have to be a robot? A damn fucking robot?

If it's going to be that way, then, that's it.

I QUIT.

Time has indeed flew so fast, faster than lightning maybe. In a blink of an eye, it's May already, and exams is in two weeks time.

Okay I'll cut the crap and get to what I wanna say.

OUR HEROINE OF THE DAY:
WAI YAN /PANDA/AMANDA/BEN 10!!!
SHE DISCOVERED THE STOLEN MOBILE PHONE ALL BY HERSELF! SO PROUD OF YOU BEN 10! A TRUE DETECTIVE!

NEXT, IS MR. SHIVA!
THE BEST LECTURER I'VE EVER MET! TOTALLY HILARIOUS, EXTREMELY TALL AND FUNNY! THANK YOU MR. SHIVA FOR MAKING US NOT HATE HISTORY AND SAY IT'S BORING! (although it's still kind of to me XD)

So yeah! That's the highlights of the events today. For those sad things that happened, I'll just forget it.

Adios and have a nice day ^^