Haix..

Ah!Ok ok,chiilax girl.Tomorrow is Labour's Day and its a holiday!Yeah!!No need to sleep early today...Lately,my life seem to have taken a big big swirl。。Blur。。。Ok，first we won drama competition during BM day!Yohoo!So happy.Ok the bad part of the swirl is,last night,during training when I was sparring with Jessie,I got kicked on my head!Ouch!So dizzy...Then,today,got bruised all over my legs and hands!!!!

A loser in everything

So sad now,can't seem to get what I want?What I want?I wanna be like a girl,like a normal girl.I'm not saying I'm not normal,it's just that I don't act normal.I think so.I suddenly remembered my favorite song.
Talk to me,
You speak with me,
Don't sink before you rise,baby,
Don't fade away...
This song's title is ice cream,really nice song.Brings me back to my past and all my memories.I really wanna lose weight but no matter how hard I try,I can't seem to succeed.What I should I do?If I don't lose at least 5kg,then sure nobody want me.Then,I think I'm going to have to be a spinster for the rest of my life.Spinster very lonely,though I can have more privacy and everything to myself.But still,I really really wanna be fitter and I rather have muscles than fats.But,I can't succeed!!AH!I wanna kill myself...

Me..

I'm very very frustrating.And I don't care what people say.I don't want to get hurt again so I can't do it.But its hard..really hard

Yeah!!

At last!Demo is done!Thanks to everyone who have helped me.Without you guys' help,I won't get anything done today.So..thank you so much!

Dreams?Or reality?

If you had a chance,to be in reality or dreams which one will you choose?I bet almost everyone of us will choose dreams.Reason?Because in our dreams,we can get the things we want even if it is impossible in reality.Well,for me,I would choose reality because before this,I was in a dream.A really nice dream,but when I realized it was just a dream and nothing will go further,I regret and wake up from it.There's one thing I learn about being in my dreams,if you put your hopes too high..poof!they will come tumbling down when you realized that your dreams are just dreams.That was what happened to me lately,and I'm not going to put my hopes so high anymore,because I don't want to regret again.So,I'll just accept what comes into my life.

Gambateh evrybody!

Whoa!!So many things to practice and within a limited time!I have sparring with me in a whole new category this year,2 breaking teams which is going nowhere,poomsae which we succeeded to train all our steps which is good,and demo!Is that crazy or what?And competition's on June!Help me people!But I'll try my very very best.Main Centre Go Go Go!

It hurts..But at least I succeeded

Ouch.My back is hurting like hell I can't even bend my body.But,the happy thing is..I can do jumping side kick!Yeah!So happy..Although it's only 20% percent of it,but at least I know how to do it already.All I need to do now is to keep improving then I can move on to training my other kicks.I'm so happy I finally did it.Thank you to all of you who have endured my mistakes with patience and guide me and finally I did it!I won't let you guys down!Thank you so much!

I'm dead,I think..

Ah!I think I'm having internal injuries..My stomach is hurting like hell!!!Due to last night's training got kicked so hard!!So pain le..And I really wanna go out with my friends!!Dad,Mum,ca I have my freedom now?Please!!!

Hyper active..

I don't even know what is wrong with me?!I am like so hyper active today!Today was suppose to be the most tiring training ever but,surprise surprise I wasn't even tired..But,I'm proud I'm not sad and all...Keep up the good job

The chase has ended..I lost..

A few minutes ago...I was told the most ugliest thing I had ever heard..A total disaster nightmare that changed my life from that very second i heard it.I'm finished...It's over..The chase has ended..He is taken.By a absolute beauty.Me?I'm a horrible monster..What should I do??Forget that nothing happened??Maybe I should..

Embarassed...sobsob

I bet everyone of us remember how happy we were to be recorded in the cam and then afterwards when we view it,we will be thinking."Oh My Gosh!Are you sure that's me??Is that really me?Why do i laugh so funnily?Oh My Gosh!I should not have do this,I should not have did that!".And bla bla bla we go blabbing on how horrible we look in the video.And now,I am currently watching the video my dad taped when I was 9 years old and laughing at how hideous I was during that time...I'm sure everybody had this experience before..

Hope,wishes and self-confidence,do they really exist??

I'm down and depressed but what can I do?Maybe I'm just thinking too much,I need a break but,I just can't seem to free myself.I need to solve all my problems but how?The last and only solution which is the last thing I'll do and hope I don't have to,quit..