Why care now?

Today marks the day of the last repetitive date on the calendar. As to most of you, if I have any readers that is, today might be the day you'll do something memorable.As for me, today was an auspicious day for me, a day that will probably be etched in my memory, and not in a good way.

I'm not denying I've done no wrong. But all the while I was wondering, pondering in the presence of the cold water beating on myself, the only way I found effective when I needed to soothe my emotions. And I was wondering, when I was scarred and traumatised, none of you cared, NONE of you, except for one. The one person who have helped me overcome my suicidal behaviour, cure my trauma, lend me a helping hand when I was in deep water, held me up when I fell down and most important of all, believed in me for who I was and who I am. So why now? Why do you care now when the scars have deepen? When I don't trust you to be worthy any more?

I'm curious. How can you all be blinded by something a person who is OBVIOUSLY a bad influence say? Is he so wise that you have to cling to his every word? Why can you not see that the one person has helped me cope with traumatised life? Why on earth would you want to hate the one person who is important to me? Isn't that selfish?

I may not be experienced or wise, but at least I know whose worthy of my trust.