Am I asking for too much?

What is the extent that someone is okay with something that they know is impossible to be okay with no matter how difficult they try and no matter how hard they try to cover it up with a smile?

Will you be seen as overreacting if you did explode? Or will they actually understand how you feel?

I guess sometimes even the person who you think understands you the most will turn out to be the most clueless person.

Am I asking for too much to have the dream that my prince will someday sweep me off my feet? Are those just the results of over expectation?

Reality, sucks.

First of all, a very congratulations to one of my dearest and oldest friend for finally finding happiness and his other half. I have to say, after seeing him gone through the pain of losing a relationship which most thought would be the one, I'm glad to see him with his other half in holy matrimony.

Although one should be joyous at an occasion like this one, I can't help but feel alone and somehow at my worst. Seeing friends doll up and the guys in their smart attires, I guess I had a little hope to be one of those girls who were pretty and wore pretty and fancy dresses to a place like that. But let's face it, I was never cut out to be like that ever since the beginning. I could try, but everytime I do, it'll just feel awkward and out of place. Being comfortable and truly yourself takes a lot of sacrifice it seems. But for one night, sometimes I wish I could be a princess and live in a fairytale and have the attention to myself. But who am I kidding eh?

Time.

So, first of all, a very happy new year to all my readers (if there is indeed anyone whose reading). 2014 has certainly been a hectic yet adventurous journey as I could say. I've been battling the 'friend' who has decided to stay as long as I breathe, the wolf which I have come to make peace with, hoping that it will be tamed for as long as it can be. 

Surely of course, it seems that I am not the only one who are battling the demons around them. Some are battling to become a better person, some are battling for a brighter future, and some, are just battling the bricks and hurdles that are stopping them from going over the bridge, toward their goals or as some would like to call it, material possessions. 

Time, is a relative essence, or whatever you would like to categorize it. Until today, the thought of what would happen to me after I stop breathing, will I be reborn? Will I know that I'm gone? All these thoughts still send a shiver down my spine when I think of it, the afterlife. But time, sadly, is never enough. Time, is simply going to move along, like the tides of the sea, feeling no pity for those who choose to be idle with it. But, I ask myself, will there ever be enough time for each of us? Will there always be enough time to reach for what you want? I guess the answer will probably be no. We will eventually just have to deal with it, we will simply just have to make the best of the time that has been given to us.

I also wonder, is it possible for two souls who belong together to meet at the wrong time? Would these two souls be better off if they were apart? Would one be an anchor to the other to achieve what he wants? Would he better off alone, at least until he finds out what he wants or have attained it?