Finally watch Darren Shan, which was called Cirque du Freak:The Vampire's Assistant. Quite a disappointment I must say, though the storyline was not bad. Darren and Evra was not how I imagined they would be, so was Larten. The movie in my opinion gives me the feeling that they're rushing on finishing it and for those who have read all the books will indeed know that they sped up and kind of mixed all the books together. So yeah that's about it.

Hi folks, so, today, 28th February, is the last day of the CNY celebrations. Sigh, time does fly when your having fun eh?

Peace folks..

Have you guys ever met someone who has pure stupidity? Well, I have, and those of you who know me well, should know who I'm talking about. Well, I wouldn't say his a SOMEONE, but with his big mouth, he can say whatever crap and make people believe it's true. I think people would believe him even if he said the Earth is square and not sphere. I don't know how he can do it, but, one funny thing, ask him to order something and he'll start shaking like a leaf.

Thinks he's the King of the World, he makes empty promises and never fulfilled them. I've learned not to trust him, and that was after the biggest mistake I've ever done, entrusting him with the most important issue of my life. Not only did he showed he was a complete idiotic not-to-be-trusted person, he also threatened me with that particular issue.

I'm not being cruel here, I'm just pissed off that he made me trusted him and I was so stupid and dumb to have believed that he had change. How can he ever changed? I wished I can turn back the clock but it's too late now, so all I can do is pray to God that I get a scholarship and can move out to further my studies. Most important of all, with all my heart I pray that my family will soon accept a new member, that way, he won't have any bullshit to talk about anymore.

Adios.

Weirdo

I've always learnt things the hard way. And last night was another example. Cursing non-stop, I got a heck of a nag from someone who never scolded me before. Screwed me upside down XD.
And I learn, haha.

I'm weird @@

Once again, I've witnessed the ugly side of humanity. And we wonder why God almighty is angry with mankind. And we wonder why the world is ending when there's so many low lives throwing rubbish everywhere they want. So what if their old ladies? Just because their old they can do anything they want? Sigh, people nowadays...

Be Aware, Care, and Share. That's the motto of Colistrians. Before I go any further, I meant no offence to anyone.

People once told me, you can't care for everyone. But what if I Want to care for everyone? After a few experiences, I have come to realize that being a psychologist is not an easy job. For example, finding myself speechless frequently when I am questioned about problems. Wanting to know or help to solve other people's problems is not as easy as I thought it would be. Well, who cares? I still want to help people as much as I can. Another matter is that I'm a hothead, most people who know me would believe this.

Turning this world into a peaceful one was my dream, with trees everywhere and animals not becoming endangered, and most importantly, let some of the many dickheads know that fighting ain't the only way to solve problems. I'm kind of sure it'll only remain a dream, but, no harm trying right?

A history!

I almost forgot to mention!

Our madam, Pui Yee, was BLUR today people! Woo hoo!

Hi people, so tomorrow is a holiday, again. Well, basically, I'll be doing my homework, too lazy to finish it up today. Then, two weeks later, it's Ujian 1. Fast right?

Anyway, went to training last night, finally! Kind of felt awkward as it's been awhile since it stopped. So yeah, sat down watching people train their ass off, too lazy to do anything with my hands. Besides, I can't do stuff when people are watching, so, sorry. Saw the guardians again though, with their evil glares.

Just hope this year will not be hell, again.

Two words. Fuck. Off.

Once again, I've been forced to miss it because of some people who are selfish enough to not care about other people's feelings. You people say you're tired? So that's it? You think you can just solve the whole thing by just opening your mouth and say, " I'm tired" and lie down, close your eyes and drift off to dream land? Not to me pal, no no.

I don't get it. If you people don't like it so much, why involve yourselves in the first place? Why say that you're interested in the first place? When the truth is that all you wanted was to show off that you're something, or whatever it is you guys have in your airheads brains. Then, what about me? I'm to be dumped? To be ignored? And then later you people come talking nice to me, expecting me to understand you people. You guys think it's easy to do that? Hell no!

Whatever my reasons are to attend it, I still want to attend it. Unlike you people, just because some people talks shit, you just decide the easiest way was to quit. So you guys just think you can stand up, sweep the shit off your fucking asses and walk away? What are you? Wimps?

If that's the case, I'm not going to force you people anymore. It's a waste of time and effort, and my saliva. I'll just have to wait till I'm 17 and get my license. Then, you can fuck off all you want with your big asses.

But for now, I'll just shut up. Just don't ever think of pushing my patience further, or else, better be ready when it explodes. I'm like a ragged doll, being thrown away after I have no use. I've worked hard for myself, and I'll keep holding on. Threatened all you want, say whatever your fucking mouth wants you to, if you're so damn smart, then don't ever come begging for my help. I'm sick of your stupid fucking puppy-eyes and countless acting you hypocrite.

Last night was the 8th day of Chinese New Year, which to the Taoist was the day for praying and of course, firecrackers! This year was by far the most noisest night! Though to my grandma, it's music to the ears. Well, it was fun. Ended up sleeping at 2 am and waking up at 5 am. Went to school being a blur head XD

Is it that important?

Like I mention in the title above, I'm referring to alcohol, yep people, alcohol. Some of us finds it a must to take it, may it be entertainment or business purpose. Maybe I have no right to have my say in this, but to me, it's not really a big deal.
So what if I don't take alcohol? So sue me? After all, I have seen a lot of the ugly sides of taking alcohol. I don't understand why alcohol is so important, I seriously really don't. Like recently, I'm not mentioning names. I can't describe how disgusted I was, to see alcohol being drank. Well, not exactly disgusted, but I would say it's not my cup of tea.
So, if I'll grow up drinking alcohol, then I'll shut up about this topic. But, if I don't, I'll make sure it won't be one of the factors pulling me down to my journey of success. After all, there are so many ways to achieve success.

Last night wasn't what i thought would happen...Well, at least it was fun.

Aunt Mei picked us up at 6.45p.m. Went to Hard Rock to have dinner. On the way, Aunt Mei said a bunch of cars will be going to Holiday Inn, the guys got over excited. Luck was on our side as we saw a few Lamborghini speeding through and knew they were there already. When we passed Holiday Inn, it was wow! There were Lamborghini, Ferrari and a few BMW. Headed to Hard Rock at first, it was awesome! The pool was cool...Had the best pizza I've ever tasted, been awhile since I've enjoyed food. Dumped dinner and hit to the beach after that to play the firecrackers Aunt Mei bought. It cost her 75bucks! Then lay down on the beach for awhile, watching the stars glowing eased my mind of worries, with the cool sea breeze, I could be there the whole night and do nothing. After that, stopped by at Holiday Inn and believe me, the guys went cuckoo over the cars! Waited for them to take photos of every inch of the cars I bet, and then we headed to a shop.
And that was the time I've dreaded. I felt like an idiot, watching others having fun and me sitting like a dummy, I don't know, maybe I was just being sensitive but if I was given a choice, I'd rather be in a lounge listening to the live band, singing or playing jazz music. Well, everyone has their flaws right?
Ah well, overall, thanks to Aunt Mei and all of those who were there, I had a great time last night letting down my hair.
Adios!

Just watched the movie 14 blades, not bad though. Most exciting of all, Wu Chun's in it! But he died! In the movie of course...how sad...TT.TT

Anyway, there were 4 or 5 guys sitting behind us and before the movie started there was the trailer of Clash of the Titans. Guess what the guys behind said? One said it was Titanic! then another one said Clash of Tee-tans! Me and dad laughed like hell! Bet they didn't knew what we were laughing for!

Happy Chinese New Year!

Happy Chinese New Year folks! As we all know, this year is the year of the Tiger which according to some people, is very fierce this year. May everyone of you be healthy always!

Steamboat just now during reunion dinner ^.^

Listening to the new version We Are The World sung for to help the Haiti people. I must say, it's quite nice

I'm not weird

"Oh my God! Are you reading? Are you really reading that?". "Hey, what are you so busy reading? *gaps*".

Yes, these are a few comments I get whenever I bury my head into Malay novels. Just today at choir practice, a few seniors said I was crazy for reading those novels. Well to me, Malay or English, they're still entertainment. They told me they'll fall asleep reading one of those.

Malay love novels are very interesting to read, I'm not saying I want to be a Malay here, but the way they accept they're fate is very touching, so are the story lines. I personally do not feel weird for reading Malay novels. Why do people think I'm crazy I have no idea. These are a few of the novels I have finished reading.




I don't know about you people, but reading Malay novels can be very addictive, brings me to the fantasy world and relieves tension. So, it's not boring to me. Am I weird or not, you people tell me.

Wednesdays...

Wednesday, most of these days were never good for me. First of all, it's like it's fated or something that we get tons of homework particularly on Wednesdays, not to mention, staying back. Then, came back so tired, gotta go to training, and let me tell you people, Wednesdays training is NOT easy.
Unfortunately, I sprained my ankle and now it's swollen and it's twice the size of my normal ankle. Lucky thing was, Johnson seemed to be in a good mood today, so I got to rest, and talked with my girls, and guys, well that sounded kind of wrong. Let's just summarize it to my buddies. Got to sit so close, with no guardians around, I must say, good things DO come when you wait, so appreciate it when they come and don't EVER hesitate.
Lastly, thank God for blessing me with two miracles in a week, and I won't push my luck again. Thanks to my girls who helped me with my retarded swollen leg ^^.

Happy Chinese New Year people!

Hatinya sayu, memikirkan takdirnya yang ditentukan,
Di fikirannya, terlintas semua memori manis yang telah berlaku,
yang akan kekal di dalam hatinya sehingga dia menghembuskan nafas terakhir.

Hujan turun renyai-renyai,
Bagai mengiringi tangisannya yang pilu,
Siapakah yang memahami betapa pedih penderitaannya pada masa itu?
Andai itu takdirnya,
Namun, dia percayai bahawa nasibnya di tangannya sendiri.

Cabaran yang ditempuhinya selama ini,
Akan dia kuatkan semangatnya,
Akan dia cuba dengan sedaya upaya,
Agar tidak kalah dan jatuh....

Don't know...

Don't know why, I feel a feeling of uneasiness surrounding me. I feel the stares of disagreement of other people, boring into my back as though I am blind, though I see and feel it. Don't know why, feels like we ain't who we were anymore, like there's a gap between us, growing day by day, making it's way till its big enough to separate us. As hard as I try, as hard as I try to reach you, the gap gets bigger by every step I take. Suffocating me with the callous comments, said behind my back. Don't know why, I don't feel what we have like we did anymore. The horror, comes haunting me, with those thoughts, whenever I see you, it haunts me, like it was forbidding.
I don't know anymore...

!

RM10

Flavor : Vanilla

School a.k.a Hell

School was always supposed to be students' second home. A place for education, a place for making new friends and also a place to enjoy ourselves. Unfortunately, all these seems to be disappearing as time goes further and as I'm growing up.

I still remembered kindergarden, the first time I stepped into my school, so eager and anticipating to make new friends. It was the most memorable two years there. Then it was primary, making new friends and making a stronger bond with old friends. Discovering myself, being a prefect, all these was fun but there are times that were hard.

Then, came secondary, still in the same school. Form Two, at the end of the semester, prefects' came into APD 1 to asked if anyone was interested to be a prefect. Votes were taken, and I was one of them who got chosen. I was between two decisions then, to be or not to be. I remembered vividly when I first entered secondary and said to myself I would spend the last 5 years of school as a normal student, for once. But I wanted the credits, see what you get when you're greedy?

So, I took the offer. Probation was fun, and when we were inaugurated, it was just the tip of the iceberg. The moment we said the oath, we had to fulfill it. But I did not sign up for all the shit that woman set up.

Enough with the pressure from every teacher who expects us, 3 Ungu to get straight As for PMR, enough with the pressure from 'people' who wants perfection and good results although they do not show it. But no, that woman just had to make our lives more miserable and devastating.

As if we prefects do not have enough pressure, she came up with new rules, with her new style. I do agree we prefects are the mirror of the school, the role models of the school that upholds the name of the school. But, that does not in any way to me, means we have to be perfect, as it is impossible.

I don't know what other prefects think but to me, I deeply regret for joining the board, no offence to anyone. I've always thought it was fun and challenging, but I was wrong. I've gotten myself into more trouble and pressure that I can ever imagined.

I could shed as many tears as I want, curse as much as I want. I can't change the fact that I'm a prefect and is suppose to be upholding the school's name. I can't, like everyone else put on a mask and be who I'm not. I can't be as disciplined as the others, I've always been the odd one out.

So, I'll just have to endure it then. But sooner or later, I shall resign.