Had this for lunch this afternoon.Tasty, was really full.

P.S. Sorry Angela if I imitated u TT

Last night during the end of training, everyone was sitting down hearing our sir talking, guess what he suddenly said?He actually asked those who won the champion last year during nationals can actually go for the selection of SEAGames!Oh My God!Nearly fainted when I heard, of course, it wasn't me but still, imagine someone from our centre actually going!Well,a few of my friends said they didn't wanna go.Cause you know, studies and all.Well,although they don;t go, it's still a great pleasure to hear that they actually are qualified to enter.

Finally, I know what it's like to have people talking about you behind your back and you being right there either with or without them noticing.No matter who is it, a friend, enemy or even adult, it sure as hell hurts a lot.So, I want to say to all those of you who I have been talking bad about behind your backs, I'm really sorry and I sincerely hope for you forgiveness.

Finally watched the movie Up!Well, it was really funny and sad, well a few parts only of course.

I don't know why, these few days seemed like living in hell to me.Everything that I've always wished to happen seemed to fade away.Well, honestly, all along, putting a mask on my face and acting like who I'm not really is a hard thing to do.It's just really hard, not only am I lying to people, I'm lying to myself and hurting my own heart and soul.But if I don't put on this mask I've always been putting on, will you all still accept me for who I am?Will you still love me and talk to me for who I am?Or will you too fade away like the rest of them?All I know is that I'm tired of being who I'm not, I'm tired of all these acting, I don't want to be a hypocrite anymore, I wanna be me.Just me, the plain, simple girl just like everybody leading a simple life in this cruel, chaotic world.Can I really do that?Without having to face any consequences?Because I truly am tired...

Stupid people

Here I was, glad that I've been free from fever and flu, coming home from grandma's.When dad opened the door, guessed what he saw and said?The fan still on, and although I wasn't the one who came back home, though I just lied that I came back to take the NDS, I got blamed.Dad went' "I knew you're the one!You came back to take the gameboy so it must be you who did not off the fan".And I was staring at that stupid damn fucking bastard who pretended nothing ever happen.He's the one who came home just now, he's the one who took the NDS without permission, why must I get blamed?!

Got nothing to do, since my blog is lack of photos, I've decided to post a few photos when I was at Pangkor earlier this year.Enjoy!

People Change..

The title says it all.Anyway, I've heard people saying a lot of people have changed since I know them.Some changed from bad to good, some from good to bad, polite to snobbish and kind to and angel.I don't know about you, but, to me, people around me, close friends or acquaintance, they have changed.Well, like they said, time changes and so does the people around us..

I'm sick.Sick for goodness sake!I hate this!Being weak and all.And this morning when mum and dad went to work, guess what mum kept telling me?"Remember ha, don't let anybody come in ha?Don't simply call anyone, message anyone or call anyone come here k?"Oh My God!You won't believe hoe I felt then.I mean, face it, so I'm a bad girl, so I've been a bit disobedient lately but, hello!Why would I jeopardise you people's trust on me?!Can't you all just gimme a break or something?!Is it so damn hard to trust me just this time to make the correct decision?I know, I'm always the little baby girl to you all, but I've grown up ok?And I know I can't live without you people, but, at least, WILL YOU GIMME SOME PRIVACY?!It's not like I'm gonna be a slut or anything, all I want is a lil space, a lil freedom to mix with whom I want.When the fucking hell can I have that huh?!

Sorry for not updating in a long time.Well, first of all.I've been elected as a prefect.Well, it's not really a 100% happy news to me, cause, believe or not, I don't really wanna be a prefect.Not that I don't like it, I actually kind of do like it, but when I think of all the pressure I'm gonna get, I shudder at that thought.And it's not like I have a choice, I was kinda forced to be also.Well, let's not talk about all the sad things.So, Friday was the last meeting for the Form Fives, and although nobody cried, I think everyone can feel the sad atmosphere.Well, for me, I feel like a lot of talented people are leaving us, cause, admit it, almost all the Form Fives prefects are so spontaneous and out going and will always try new things.Anyway, I got selected as a member of Student Discipline Committee, meaning I'll be selling name tags and stuff to people..Oh well, wish me luck then!

Finally, after a day of hard work, I finally finish Sejarah folio!Well, actually, to be exact, it's almost.But at least I finished most of it, the rest is those Puan Tang haven't give.And hopefully, HOPEFULLY, I get to print it out or I'm really commit suicide or slit my neck.Now, back to music and moral folios again...And oral too.

Tired to death...

Today was Speech Day.Started with the speeches...blablabla...Then prize giving then performances like usual...Played gamelan,went really well..was really happy..and now damn tired and have to finish so many folios..

Have you ever felt like it was the end of world?Like what you do will never be what you want anymore?Like what you want won't truly happen anymore?Like all the bliss and happiness has gone away?Going further and further away from you?Well, that was what had happen to us, or at least, me.We tried, though we were swollen in this cruel and evil environment where the callous crowd do not care about us at all.They think we're disaster, they think we're devils.Truth is, why do you people care so much?It's not like we're committing any murder or serious crime.I don't know what happened to the once blissful environment I was in last time, all I know is that some bastards has taken that away from me and I swear I'm gonna find that back, because I've had enough and I'm tired of being a slave or as I always call it, a dog on a tight leash.I'm sick and tired of doing every single thing that you people think it's good.If it's so good, then why not just do it yourselves then?Why not try it yourselves and see how hard it is.I'm sick and tired of being bullied and kicked here and there, no more of these nonsense anymore.I'm not a little girl anymore..

Sore..TT

Wednesday training was really really very very TIRING...Okay, I know I'm being dramatic again but it is for me.First, we or me, was so happy that we didn't had to wear vest cause it's really hot and stuffy wearing it.Then, jogging as usual and someone finally join the training at last.Then later, wheel barrel, and we had to carry our partners and walk!Still okay for me though, the worst training of the night, push ups!We had to do on palm, knuckles and fingers!And even have to like knock our knuckles when we do!My hand was like aching and I had stay behind with everybody watching and have to do 10 times on knuckles and have to knock them together!Ouch!First, kor came and teach, then Jin Shan then Jason then Fook. Then finally when I finished 10, had to do another 5 on palm for sir to see!Finally got to take a break and I can barely lift a 100 plus.After break, my favourite!Strechtching exercise!And we have to do hand stand too!First time doing on the wall so freaky!And now, my arms and stomach is hurting like hell!But, last night's training was fun...Felt really blissful^^

Have you seen my childhood?Well, it just came into my mind that I start my post with this sentence *tribute to The King Of Pop*.Anyway, my childhood is filled with sweet and bitter memories.Well, today, a bunch of bad memories came flushing through my mind.So they say I'm a show off, said I'm showing off just because I'm good at studying.I admit I am showing off, I admit I do not answer when you ask me questions.But did you ever know, how much I got hurt?Both physically and mentally?And when I told you after sometime, you said why did I told you after such a long time.You know why I didn't tell you?Because I did not want to break your hearts.Every time I want to tell, something comes along and you start to forgive him. Like now, you said I must respect him, truth is I did try, but he made it worse.

One Of Those Days..

Woke up in the morning feeling fresh and happy.So happy that I didn't even complain doing housework.Everything was just fine until I realized I ran out of luck.Wanted to go out but was not allowed to, more like I wasn't allowed to go alone.One of those days when I don't get what I want.

Okay, I don't know what got into to me but...I'm addicted to cars!Some of them that I took from the internet.Thanks to my kor kor who told me their names..Bugatti Veyron, Mclaren F1...Nice huh?

Bumblebee and Camaro!

Had nothing better to do, so uploaded some photos...Nice right?

Nice movie

Just came back from Prangin with my family.Watched Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince. Kind of nice, though mum and dad don't really understand what is the story about. Well, my favourite part? Was when Ron was in the hospital and he called Hermione's name when Lavender was there saying "Don't worry Won-Won!I'm here!".So funny seeing her get mad.Hate her, stupid Lavender.Well, the sad part which is also the ending is, Dumbledore died, and for the wrong reason.