No better way than to start a post with hi folks! Well, life's been what it always is, ups and downs here and there.

Hatred with people too, though, I've promised myself not to hate anyone because it is not good. I mean, that particular person do not even know you hate them, and there you are, thinking of the hatred all day long while they go on with their lives peacefully. It's so not worth it right?

Finally reached the 11th month of our relationship. I won't deny, there were times when we almost called it off, but, thank God and the love we have for each other which is deeper than the ocean, we survived. Going through all the ups and downs together, I truly appreciate what you have done for me. I still can't believe back when we were paired for demo, I hated you, and now, I can't live without you. I thank God for giving me you when I was at rock bottom. May we be together, now and forever. I love you sweetheart. ^^

Well, had dinner at Tao just now, really great place with great food and everyone was so friendly! Except for a few people whom I do not like. Spent the whole night eating lamb terriyaki and scallops! Once again, thanks so much to mum & dad and their friends! Love you guys!

School's been hectic today, with the spot check on Forms 1-3. First time skipping lessons the whole day, kinda weird though. Too bad Pn. Soon taught Chapter 4 while me & Dianah was out. Ah well, it's all fated.

Had a crazy time chatting & gossiping with the two crazy HP and DHP, none other than, Miss Coconut Shell and Mrs. Crabs! Kept laughing like crazy people at the Government House while recording down the confiscated stuff!

Kept forgetting today was Wednesday instead kept thinking today is Thursday. Maybe that's 'coz Friday is a special day ^^

Liar or actor?

People often say being ourselves is the best, because it's when we are becoming ourselves that we're comfortable. Well, that's me then. Somehow I don't like to act in front of anyone, even myself. If I feel like shouting then I shout, if I feel like crying I cry. That's me.
However, is that the best way to present myself to a first impression? But, is it a wise choice to be someone that you're not? Do the things you're not comfortable with? Being that someone you are definately not, just so to impress everybody, what's the feeling like? I often see girls behaving, well, being girly. I don't wanna mention names but I know some people will know who I'm mentioning. Yes, no denying that they're pretty, gentle, fragile and is loved by all who sets their eyes on them.
Truth is, I never thought of myself like one of them, I used to dream to be like one of them, pretty on the outside, loved by everyone, being so gentle. But, that's just not who I am.
I'm rough, and not pretty like them. But I'm sure I have some qualities they don't. After all, I don't believe in beauty on the outside.
Well, that's what I think at least.

One last chance that's all I need. 'Coz once I miss it..Then that's it..I shall quit..And be a burden no more..

Mistakes..

We learn from mistakes. That's what I kept saying, either to myself or my friends, or my loved ones. What if? What if we never learn? What if every mistake I've done comes with a price? What if every mistake I make means hurting someone? Will that still be considered as a mistake?

Is it true that God created each one of us because of a purpose? If it's true, then what's mine? Maybe I already knew, since that name given to me says it all. I've always been digging my own grave, making big mistakes although knowing it's wrong and regretting it afterward. Will I ever learn?

Peace folks..

How should I start this?

People. That's what I'm gonna say about in this post. To be clearer, it's human behavior. Well, maybe more than that but, that's the basic thing I wanna talk about.

People often tell me, life is always unfair or there are no such thing as good deeds without hidden agendas. I now believed them, little by little. Reality IS ugly.

However, is there no other way to solve problems or misunderstandings? Must we all war against each other? Well, whatever it is, humans were created to care for the planet, not to miss out the environment. Unfortunately, almost everyone on this planet, named human, can be blinded by greed. An example? Those people who hunt for sharks and cut off the fins and then, throws the sharks back into the sea, letting them await their slow and painful death. What would it feel like if your hands were to chopped off and then you were left alone?

Another example, polar bears, tigers, anteater, elephants and so many other creatures that was created by Him. What do we humans do? We kill them, instead of showering them with love and care.

So, life is unfair. We humans make our own lives miserable. Is this what He created us for?

After all I've done, I can't even take a break from all this shit and crap? So I get a B, you think I ain't sad? That's like the first time ever I get a fucking 66% in BM. Do you think I'm glad? I worked so hard, and what do I get? "Play la, play some more and see what will you get? Play la"

I worked hard for what I want okay? I don't fucking care if you talk bad about me, I know what I want. I know how to achieve it. Yes, I'm stubborn. But at least I know what are dreams and have them. Dreams exist to let us know that nothing is impossible. Imagine one fine day you come back from work, so tired and you just slam your body on the sofa. Dreams exist then, brings you away from the tiring and awful reality, and into the clouds. Although they don't do much to help, but still, at least they help in releasing stress and make you a happier person.