Will I Survive?

Did you ever cling your hopes onto certain people because they were your inspiration? That they were the prove that something can be done because they are the living prove? I received a shocking news today, hearing that their world was broken apart. I have looked up to them as an inspiration and most important, she was a dear friend and was always there when the road is bumpy. But now, I'm left with nothing. I feel lost. I keep asking myself will I too face the similar situation?

I've yet again succeeded in discovering the ugly side of humanity. May it be my acquaintances, my mentors, my friends or the people whom I used to respect. Everywhere I turn, there's always something that is happening. Why? Why can't everything just went back to the way they were? Why can't things went back to what they were 5 years ago? Everyone was so much more friendlier then. Everyone was treated equally, and everyone became a family. But now? All of that has turned to ashes. My question is, will the ashes turn into a phoenix? Will the rain fade and the rainbows appear?

It's only been a week since school started and already I'm in a mess. Dealing with all sorts of people every day, I am relieved to say that I am still sane. I've had words that cut me deep thrown to me, I just hope that I still survive this endeavour. Being in the top is not easy as I have come to realized. As days pass by, I find myself wondering have I made the right decision? Have I chosen the correct path to pursue?

But, at the end of the day, no matter what life throws at us, it's still our life. We decide what we are and not become who others want us to be. I just hope that at the end of the day, everything is worthwhile.