Truth or Lies?

Here's the fact that I have learned to accept, life, as it seemed, is never truly fair. No matter how much justice is done, things will still remain unfair. If a person is found guilty of raping someone, he is sentenced to death, or is canned. I don't think that will give the victim her virginity back will it? Therefore, like I said, life may seem to be fair, but the fact is, it never was and never will be.

Here's another fact I'd like to share. First impressions are vital, screw it and for the rest of your life you'll never be able to gain a person's trust. Why? Because people like so so much to judge the book by it's cover. They never even gave a chance to let a person prove themselves worthy. Instead, they jump to conclusions. Are they naive or simply are idiots? On a different note, most of us choose to believe based on what we are told, without even wanting to investigate the truth behind what we are told. What if it was not the truth? Are we going to be blinded by lies just because the person who tells us are so called 'friends'?

Thirdly, I have found the phrase, "people change" to be very true indeed. Within a year, so many people that I've once trusted turned their backs on me. Don't ask me why, because, truth is, I too wanna know why. They've changed, and when I say changed I meant 100% changed. I don't know them anymore. They've grown to be so hateful, so bossy, so ignorant, so arrogant, to sum it up, they've become assholes. I don't know, maybe they thought that with power, respect is gained. Well, guess what guys? You're all fucking wrong. Respect is gained, it's not something that you can have overnight. Because when you respect someone, without any hidden agendas, they will realize that. And in return, they respect you for who you truly are.

Besides the above mentioned, I now know why family and friends are important. And when I mentioned family and friends, I meant those who really understand you, not those who pretend to show their empathy and sympathy because they think it is their responsibility to do so. The more I grow up, the more I see with my own eyes, I'm beginning to feel that I am the black sheep. Loneliness is my greatest fear. Therefore, I'm the type of person who will never survive without a shoulder to lean on or an ear to listen to my whining. Maybe I'm unfaithful, but have they ever thought, after all those years of working so so hard, do I not deserve a break? But no, they've decided to love him more than me. Then so be it. I have no rights to tell them which is which, they should know better. I'm not asking for more love, all I want is for them to see the truth and not be blinded by acts and lies.

Freedom, is what every child wants. Some want it because they want to do crazy wild things. But me, I await the day when I can finally start spreading my wings and fly on my own. Yes it's gonna be a pain the ass, but, I'll have to face the harsh world outside, it's just the matter of time. I await the day when I can finally free myself from this mental torture. If this is what God gave me to test my patience, then dear God, I have survived. I plead to You to bless me and all whom I love.